So, today is a perfectly normal day. I had maths in the morning followed by double period of english which was alright. Probably because I ended up watching prison break at the end of class. Haha. Hey, I'm not all that bad. In my defense, I finished my work already :D

Also, pn jamaliah told me that I don't need to sit for my exams. Instead, I'll be having extra lessons with the science classes. Well, at least that's better than sitting for exams which I am totally not prepared for.

Then, during break, quang told me that pn farah informed them that we're all supposed to go to cheras. However, she didn't come to my class to inform me but I guess it's coz I'm the only one in my class so maybe she forgot. Steph, Rina and Aemilia said that I have to go anyway. Coz it's impossible that I'm the only one who's not going right?

It's curently accounts class and I'm not listening at all coz they're in the middle of a topic which I haven't learnt yet. I guess I'm just gonna wait till extra classes then I'll fully concentrate :)

I finally figured out what my problem is or was or whatever la. I'm insecure and I'm afraid. That's why I feel like this. My heart is still shut and so I've gotta try to open it coz at the end of the day, I'm the one who's gonna regret and lose out.

Nic's still being hostile but I honestly don't care anymore coz I'm so sick and fed up of going through that. San, on the other hand isn't doing so well. I wish the both of us could just run away somewhere far like alaska or smt and just disappear off the face of the earth and start new. Hang in there, honey. I love you.

Below would be pictures by jian hao's 'professional' camera :p (I must admit though, it really is good)

A day to remember =)

So the last show is finally over and it was great. At the end of the show however, everyone was getting so emotional and crying but there I was with emily, steph, sean and quang all smilling and laughing happily. Haha. Yes, we were a weird bunch.

Today was declared a holiday for those in production and tomorrow will be back to school for all of us. I just realised that I have only 1 week till mid sem exams and I'm so not prepared for it yet. I'm especially screwed for sejarah coz I literally know nuts. I'm gonna try to get out of the exams and then I'll have the holidays to look forward to and Platinum expedition :)

Haha. I feel so guilty coz I haven't been doing my work and I'm kinda lost in school so yeah. What more, I think I have to sit for my Mid-Sem examinations which I am SO screwed for coz I know nuts. Haha.

Currently in school waiting for 1 o'clock to cometo go to Cheras. After these 3 days, I won't be going to Cheras anymore and it's back to work :(

BUT the holidays are coming!!! I'll be going to Ria Bintan for like 5 days, i think and then I'll be off to Langkawi for Platinum expedition! :D haha it seems like a non-stop holiday for me, seriously and that's why I feel so guilty. What more, I'm getting lazier and lazier by the day which really sucks.

I haven't ven finished reading Harry Potter which means I'm really, really, really slow considering when I got the book and how long I've been taking to read it :p oh well, that's me. Hehe.

So I'm gonna continue listening to music and wait for time to pass. Ciao! :)

How do we know if we're in love? How do we know that we've found 'the one'? What IS love actually?

Is it the feeling of caring for someone deeply?

Is it that when you're in love with someone, he's the first person you think about the moment you wake up?

There are many definitions of love and frankly, none of them really is the truth.

Next, how do we differentiate between love and lust?

Questions of the heart which no one can really answer.

I've had love, I guess you can call it that coz it lasted for 3 years. But honestly, I'm relieved to have gotten out of that relationship. It was getting too ugly and if I had continued, I would've been driven out of my mind.

But I'm still confused with my feelings and I'm not sure how to feel or what to feel anymore. Most of all, I'm terrified of my past and I'm terrified that history will repeat itself. I learned a lot in the past 3 years which was good but I learned it the hard way.

For the first time in 1 year or so, I can finally say that I'm happy =)

And I owe all of this to my other half, Sandra. I love you so much honey, you helped me through everything and you were there for me the whole way. When I was sinking down in depression, you were the one who pulled me up and made sure I did not let anyone bring me down.

Next, I owe it to my beautiful cousin, Lisa. Even though we only got closer recently, the moment we met, we read each other perfectly. You were there when I needed a shoulder to cry on, you were there when I was really down and you gave me all the support in the world. I love you sweetie :)

Then comes my 2 newest friends, Katherine and Jasmine. They were my first friends in a new school, in a new environment and a new class. They understood perfectly and helped me through the roughest months of my life. They were there for me when I needed to rant and when I was really down. I love the both of you loads :)

Finally, I love all these people because now that I've found happiness, they are happy for me :)

Thank you and I love all of you :D

Being high for a very long period of time can be really tiring. Well, that was me today especially during english and then it slowly died down. As a result of being high during english, I participated in a Ms. Tye's play which was a courtroom scene and I was an awesome procecutor!! :D It was exhilirating and awesome :p

Plus, they cancelled production crew going to Cheras at the very last minute so I ended up staying in school with no books at all. Sigh... I want to go to Cheras! :( Not to mention, we're not going to Cheras till next week, I think. Oh well, I guess everything happens for a reason right? So I'm just gonna try to relax and see where my life goes :)

Been coughing all day and I think I've coughed a hole in my throat. Haha I honestly think that if I cough anymore, I'm gonna cough my lungs out. I'm supposed to be doing my add math work and study but I'm so lazy and tired, I've got no mood at all.

What more, I'm worried that my karma's gonna come around and bite me in my ass and the consequences are gonna be huge :( sigh, but I guess it's my life right? I seriously hope I don't get bitten this time. Haha.

*cough cough cough* =)

My taste buds are all messed up due to my cold :( The only thing can taste is Maggie Mee and that's really sad but tastes good though. Hehe. Hmmm today I went to Yew Chuan's birthday lunch/party at Sun & Surf cafe in Sunway Resort Hotel. Yuen and her family were there as well so I didn't feel so left out with all of Yew Chuan's KDU friends. I knew some of them but it was awkward in a way, probably coz I changed school and it's just........... awkward.

The food was alright, nothing great but what I loved most was the chocolate fountain. The chocolate covered with marshmallows was delicious! But after a while the chocolate got to me coz of my cold so I had to stop. After lunch, Yuen, Yin and I walked over to Sunway Pyramid. We wanted to catch a movie but the earliest movie was at 5.00 in the evening which was too late to stay for.

So in the end, we walked back to the hotel and went back home. I stopped by at Yuen's place to play with her fatty and also to collect Charmed Season 6 :D

Omg, I totally forgot that yesterday was my grandma's birthday!!! :(

HAPPY BIRTHDAY, GRANDMA!!! :D

Well, now i have to finish my art work which I have to pass up on Tuesday. If I don't, my teacher's gonna kill me :( But I'm watching Charmed and my Drew Fuller's in it :p hehe.