made a trip to klang today to my mum's parent's house. mum and gee-ee (my 2nd aunty) wanted to clear some of my grandfather's stuff. the catch was that my mum's brother and his wife with their son lives in that house as well and the thing is, my mum doesn't speak to her brother nor his wife. so you can imagine how awkward it was being there with them while no one spoke to each other.

my cousin, tian seong (i think that's his name), looked so different from the last time I saw him which was let me see, 10 years ago? yeah, that's it :) weird huh? he found it as awkward as I did but thank god we left fast.

after that we met up with my godsisters for lunch and then headed to their house to eat mangosteens. I ate so much during lunch I could hardly breathe. then I ate loads of mangosteens with lisa which made my condition even worse. I've been eating so much it'll be a miracle if I don't become obese. haha. by the time we left klang, it was 5.30 p.m.

I don't know why, at the end of today, I felt so angry and hurt. It's ironic how my own mother has so much faith in my cousin but she looks down on me so much. it hurts so much it's actually funny :) I'm so fed up of feeling this way, I don't wanna feel anymore. it makes me wanna give up and I feel myself going down that dark road again. believe me, there is a thin thin line between me and that road.

byeeeee :)