failed to study last night :(

need to focus on science now then later on sejarah.

oh and i got a facebook accounts last night since i keep getting emails from ppl inviting me to join so i figured what the hell, might as well join. it's so different from friendster. so much more things to do. haha. but i gotta stop playing around with it and focus in studying. ughhhh!!!

i miss my sleeping beauty :( it's 2 months today :)

oh oh oh!!! i got my 2 dozen cup cakes today :D hehehe think i'm gonna finish a dozen today :p

aite, gonna ciao to study now.

xoxo,
ness

friday.....

yay.... end of the week....

but 2 more days to finals. sigh.

progressing in sejarah but not so much of science so i gotta start today. i wanna go to a spa :( haha i'm gonna get my mum to go with me after finals :D

mum said i could go to the cast party so i guess i'm going then :) but i'm gonna be so tired on that day. i can't wait for finals to be over. somehow, time seems to pass really fast during exams, which is good :D

quang's at tanjung jara. no idea where that is. miss him :(

wheeeeeeee........ okay.... i'm gonna continue watching heroes now.

xoxo,
ness

finals are in 3 days and i'm not feeling panicky at all. haha. the timetable for commerce students aren't packed at all and at least i have the weekend to study perdagangan. it's well spread out so it's good :)

cast party is on the 9th of october. on the night of the final day of exams. don't really feel like going coz i'll definitely be super tired and all i wanna do is relax after exams. quang wants me to go though and i have to ask my mum first. so if she lets me go then i'll go if she doesnt then i won't :) simple. hehe.

gotta concentrate on sejarah and science this weekend. then i only take one day to study ekons so it's okay. then accounts i just have to memorize the way the accounts are done. then i have the next weekend to study perdagangan :D and then freedom!!! wheeee... ahahahah... okay... sejarah now. i hope i dun fall asleep.

xoxo

slept at 2, had 4 hours of sleep and then headed for school again :)

visited Michelle's blog today for the first time in a very long time since before she was pregnant actually. the moment her page loaded, i saw the most adorable baby ever: my nephew, Brandon Ngeow :)

i haven't met him yet coz well, my mum and my aunty aren't in good terms nor talking terms. this has been going on ever since i was young so i was never close to both my cousins, michelle and lionel. we only saw each other during cny or weddings or funerals. same goes to su ling, my cousin on my mum's side. it's really unfair that the children have to suffer the consequences of the adults' disagreement or fued.

i've been suffering the consequences for years now and that's why my family is actually getting smaller and smaller. of course i am grateful to those cousins in which i am close to :)

so back to michelle's blog. yes, Brandon is the cutest and most adorable baby ever. i'm so happy for michelle that she found her happiness with wu han and managed to start a family. now, she's happy :) i was browsing the posts when i saw a post and there was a comment made by someone named: uncle ho.

who else could it be but my father? i know. i had no idea that my dad visits her blog. i mean yeah my dad is up to date with technology and all but he would never check anyone's blog. this is how far we've come. to the point where my dad has to check on my cousin and her baby through her blog because we don't meet up.

it's really sad. when i saw the comment, i teared. i felt so sad for my dad coz i know that he loves michelle very much. she was his first niece and before i arrived, he loved both michelle and lionel very much. sigh. i guess that's just the reality of life.

well, there's nothing i can do coz what's between the adults will stay between the adults.

alright, i'm exhausted but it's just for 2 more weeks and then freedom!! :D

xoxo,
ness

okay, so i've decided on the macbook, black version :) well, i'm still skeptical on my decision but looking at it rationally, i don't actually need a macbook pro and it ain't exactly pretty as well. so yeah, i'll get the pretty black one although i'll have the same one as yuen.

had tuition, came back late so had little time to do work. by the time i finished math and math tuition work, it was already 1 in the morning so i figured that there wasn't any sense in studying coz nothing will go in my head with the horrible headache i was having.

timetable for exams are out.

Day 1: science 1&2, est 1 and art 1

Day 2 :eng 1, est 2 and sejarah 1&2

Day 3: ekonomi 1&2 and eng 2

Day 4: accounts 1&2 and art 2

Day 5: bm 1&2 and maths 1

Day 6: perdagangan 1&2 and art 3

Day 7: maths 2 and moral


there. feeling so sick now. wanna sleep but can't coz of tuition and the obligation of studying. *sigh*

i got back my necklace from nic. he didn't seem moody or anything. so i guess he's finally moved on and realised that he no longer has a hold on me. which is good. i never thought that i would actually get over him, like seriously. i used to be so hard headed bout not letting him go and that we were going to last, bla bla bla.. and now? it's all over just like that. for the better of course :) but one thing that relationship did for me was it made me strong, very much stronger. but hey, every happiness t both him and sherry.

i wanna eat mcd!!! :(

byeeeee.......

6 more days till finals :(

i'm feeling the need to panic but i don't have the energy. haha. i just realised that i have A LOT to study. need to get my studying mood and habit on which is: sleep at 3 or 4 everynight studying. be strong in the morning and pay attention in class :) then after finals, sleep all i want :p hahahaha. very unhealthy, i know but no choice la :(

thank god it's the last examination of the year.

and i solemnly swear that i will start studying early next year :D hehe.

tuition later on at night, so screwed coz i didnt finish my work. not that i didnt wanna finish but i've been studying so i didnt have time. sigh.

toodles! :)

spent the whole day out. didn't study AT ALL. feeling super guilty right now. sigh.

so to make sure my guilt doesn't guilt me to death, i'm gonna study till i can't keep my eyes open anymore.

sean's party was nice. the place was nice too, very cosy. mum walked me up to the place and only quang and kenneth were there. sean came forward to call her and also to introduce himself to her. and guess what? so did quang and kenneth. my heart was beating so fast i was so afraid i was gonna pass out. haha. anyway, when she picked me up, she said she was impressed with how polite they were. so all's good :)

went for facial this afternoon, then walked around hartamas plaza. ended up going to one world to the jap restaurant. food wasn't bad, quite good actually. thank god i didn't over eat coz i usually do.

so i figured out that i'd better study something that i can actually absorb which will be science. besides, i left my sej book in the car. oh no!!! i'm feeling sleepy already. shit shit shit shit. sighh.... bye bye :(

I gotta say what's on my mind
there's something about us that doesnt seem right these days
life keeps getting in the way
whenever we try somehow the plan is always rearranged
it's so hard to say but I gotta do what's best for me
you'll be okay

I've got to move on and be who I am
I just don't belong here
I hope you understand
we might find a place in the world someday
but at least for now
I gotta go my own way

don't wanna leave it all behind
but I get my hopes up and watch I them fall everytime
another colour turns to grey
and it's just too hard to watch it all slowly fade away
I'm leaving today coz I gotta do what's best for me
you'll be okay

I've got to move on and be who I am
I just don't belong here
I hope you understand
we might find a place in the world someday
but at least for now
I gotta go my own way

I so love this song. haha. I like the lyrics mostly :)

so today only 10 ppl came to school. katt ditched me in the morning :( so i was left to the misery of moral. anyway, jas came after break so I'm not so lonely anymore

sean's party is tonight. somehow i suddenly don't feel like going. not exactly in a partying mood. but i'll go anyway :)

and of course........

Happy Sweet 16th Birthday, Sean! :D

Harimau
Captain: Quang Hui
Assistant Captain: Niraj & Jun Kit
Lady Captain: Shi Ann
Assistant Lady Captain: Me! :)

Beruang
Captain: Bryan
Assistant Captain: Dani
Lady Captain: Aemilia
Assistant Lady Captain: Siew Lynn

Seladang
Captain: Afiq
Assistant Captain: Henry
Lady Captain: Farah Diyana
Assistant Lady Captain: Stephanie

Helang:
Captain: Kah Fai
Assistant Captain: Veekay
Lady Captain: Farah Aisha
Assistant Lady Captain: Izza

and there you have the captains for the year 2008! :D

Well, it should be a fun year next year :)

I'm happy for Quang as he got captaincy, he'll make a great captain. congratulations baby! :D

Katt's gonna get captaincy for marching. Don't worry babe, you'll get the post :)

okay so i gotta study perdagangan tonight and also if possible, chapter 5 of sejarah. i'm trying not to panic by not thinking of finals but it ain't working. okay *breath in* *breath out* *breath in* *breath out*

it's 12.40 and I have acomplished my goal for today! I've finished studying chapter 4 of sejarah. I know it doesn't seem like much coz well, I have lots more to study but hey, it's the best I've done so far. so yes, I am proud of myself. i'm so sleepy now though. haha but it'll pay off :)

so tomorrow i'll most probably be studying perdagangan coz i've got a test on friday so yeah but i'll try to start on chapter 5 of sejarah. if i can do 1 chapter a day, i should be okay. however, i've still got science, ekons and perdagangan to study. the rest I just gotta go through quickly.

hmmm it's house captain election tomorrow. wonder who will be harimau's captain........... either niraj, jun kit or quang. obviously quang has my vote coz he'll be a great leader :) i also wonder who will be the other houses' captain. i hope it'll be someone katt likes coz if it isn't, she's gonna be so pissed. haha.

aite, i'm gonna crash now or i won't wake up tomorrow. toodles! :p

homework status: progressing

studying status: DEAD

clearly my plan to start studying yesterday did not work. but not that I can blame myself coz I usually don't have time to do anything on mondays. so I'll TRY today provided I can finish my homework in time.

had a splitting headache last night and was so tired to the point where I didn't have any energy to be angry or merajuk at quang. haha. poor guy was so tired, he fell asleep :p my lil sleeping beauty.

can't wait for the holidays to come but at the same time i don't want it to come coz it'll mean that i'll be in form 5 which means spm and also it'll be my last year in school :(

it isn't easy going to college and all. everyone thinks it's nice coz there're no rules, no uniform, etc.. but it's hard. I never knew till lisa went to college and I observed how she took it. but then again, it depends on the individual and how sociable he or she is. anyway, enough bout the future, now is now :)

alright. I am going to do my bio homework then my karangan and then if I still have time, study. sigh.

I am officially without braces :D

it was such a pain to remove it, seriously. removing the wires and brackets were easy but the removing of cement from my teeth was a pain. my dentist had to use like 3 different tools to scrape it off then he did scaling which hurt coz it kept touching my gums :( but it was all worth it in the end coz I love my teeth now! :)

haha went for x-tray this morning. both for my back and teeth. then went to collect my retainers. i met alia from kdu there. what a small world and guess what? she's just extracting her teeth to get ready for braces. hahahha and to think i thought i was slow :p

well as for my retainers, i now speak quite retardedly. it's not that bad la but i can't pronounce certain words properly so it's quite retarded. mummy, lisa and gee-ee were making fun of me :(

went for facial at 3 then came home. watched high school musical 2 which is actually quite nice. the songs are much nicer and the story line wasn't bad. i was so into the movie that i felt like slapping troy for being an ass and sharpay for being a bitch AND i nearly cried when gabriella broke up with troy but as typical disney movies end, they get back together. love the songs you are the music in me and i've gotta go my own way. hahahha, yes i know i'm weird.

i find it a chore to eat now coz i gotta remove my retainers so i'm just not gonna eat :)

sigh, i havent' started studying and finals are coming nearer and nearer :( tuition tomorrow morning and then i HAVE to study.

wish me luck. loves!

i stole this survey from em who stole it from rach's blog :p and yes katt, you can steal it from me.

GENERAL
1. name- vanessa
2. nicknames- ness
3. birthday- 18th April
4. place of birth- subang jaya
5. zodiac sign- aries
6. sex- female
7. grade- 11
8. school- ssc
9. occupation- student
10. residence- subang jaya



Apearance
12. hair colour- dark brown
13. hair length- long
14. eye colour- black
15. best feature- errr... i like my eyes :p
16. height- 5 feet 6
17. braces- yep but removing it tomorrow! :D
18. glasses- yep, real pretty ones too :D
19. piercings- 4
20. tattoos- nope




firsts
22. first best friend- sandra :)
23. first award- 1st place for academics in std 2?? haha
24. first joined sport - 100m dash
26. first real vacation- europe for 3 weeks :)
27. first concert- simple plan
28. first love- nicholas chan :)



Favorites
29. movie- none in particular, actually
30. tv show- ugly betty, grey's anatomy, desperate housewives, prison break, one tree hill, charmed, alias and friends
32. rapper- timbaland
33. band- gym class heroes
34. song right now- god blessed the broken road
35. parent- both. equally.
36. sweets- anything that taste really sweet :D
37. sport- netball, atheletics and.... cheerleading?
38. restaurant- allegro
39. brand- guess, lulu guiness, nike and zara
40. store- guess :)
41. school subject- maths
42. animal- puppies!!
43. book- tons =D i love them
44. magazine- seventeen
45. shoes- vincci




currently
46. feeling- normal
47. meaning- i'm fine. my perfect mood.
48. in love- yep :)
49. eating - chocolate! :p
50. drinking- water
52. online- yep
53. listening to- journey to the past - aaliyah
54. thinking about- what to study and that i SHOULD be studying now
55. wanting to- relax and not think bout final exams
56. watching- ugly betty :p
57. wearing- platinum expedition shirt and white shorts


future
58. want kids- yes
59. mean to get married- yes
61. where do you want to - by the beach (a clean beach, mind you) with the wind blowing lightly while the sun sets :D
62.car- bmw x5




which is better with a guy?
63. hair color- depends on the guy but no funky colours
64. hair length- short
65. eye color- sexy ones :D
67. cute or sexy- hmmmm both? :p
68. lips or eyes- eyes.
69. hugs or kisses- kisses
70. short or tall- tall, definitely tall
71. easygoing or serious- a lil of both makes a perfect guy :D
72. romantic or spontaneous- romantic and spontaneous at times but not TOO spontaneous
74. sensitive or loud- sensitive
75. hookup or relationship- relationship
77. trouble maker or hesitant- troublemaker



have you ever..........
78. kissed a stranger- nope.
79. had alcohol- yes
80. smoked- no
81. ran away from home- almost but it didn't work out. lol.
82. broken a bone- nope, ouch!
83. got an x-ray- yep
85. broken someone's heart- yes
86. broke up with someone- no
87. cried when someone died- all the time. it just gets to me. haha.
88. cried at school- yes

do you believe in..
89. god- yes. he is always there. watching out for me
90. miracles- yes
91. love at first sight- nope
92. ghosts- no
93. aliens- no
94. soul mates- maybe
95. heaven- yes
96. hell- yes
98. kissing on the first date- yes. hehe.
99. horoscopes- no

yeahanswer truthfully...


100. is there someone you want, but can't have? - nope, i have him already :D

my iMac's spoilt :( it won't start up. i think it's coz i installed a pirated windows in it and now it's corrupted. no matter what i do, it still won't start :'( sigh.. i guess i either have to send it back or get someone to come fix it. so heart sick la, both laptop and comp is screwed.

went for swimming test in the morning which lasted for only 5 minutes. haha. then had bm and physics after. having math now which is also another relaxing class. then after lunch will be sejarah. i think the monthly test is today - i'm gonna fail. poor quang has 5 hours of chemistry straight. haha poor baby but he'll survive :)

tomorrow's the day!!! :D

studied a lil of sejarah yesterday. like really really trully study and memorise. so yes, i officially know 0.00001% of the whole 8 chapter :p i highly doubt i'll be able to finish studying by finals but i'll try. plus, other subjects as well so yeah.

gonna pretend to listen to pn jamaliah now :)

yes, 4 commerce has been turned into a cyber cafe as all the guys started playing halo before class, after class and during class. haha. i've been playing too coz it's fun! it's not that i'm addicted to it but it's just fun to play it with friends :) both raisa and katt have been introduced to it as well and now they like playing it too :p so yes, my class is now officially a cyber cafe where we pretend to be doing work but actually playing halo at the back :D

today's the most boring and unproductive day. had math in the morning, got back monthly test marks. i got 74 which is the highest in my class! :D it's not that good but oh well, i tried and i also had a lot of careless mistakes which could've given me marks. i got 11 bonus marks for trying a question that no1 attempted. hehe. quang beat me though :( he got 78 but his question 6 wasn't counted so if it was, he woul've gotten 50 which actually means that i beat him!! :D hehe.

so after maths, had double period of eng which was a total waste of time coz i finished all my work already except my essay on climate change. sssshhhhh!!! hehe. the guys and i spent the whole 2 hours playing halo. my eyes are all tired and strained now. haha.

having accounts now..

doing work.....

listening to music....

blogging.....

and i think my batt's dying...

i miss abang :(

i miss quang too :)

gonna have a forum thingy with datin later on. gonna fall asleep but good thing is no lessons :)

then.....

2 more days till friday!! awesome :D

ciao!

I"M REMOVING MY BRACES THIS FRIDAY!!!!!! :D

WHEEEEEEEEEEEE!!! YAHOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!! YAYYYYYYYYYYYYYY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Hahahahahaha, sorry I'm just so happy that I can finally remove it after 2 and a half years of torture and pain. Hahahaha.. I'm gonna have sparkly white teeth real soon :D:D

Well, the beginning of the day was horrible. I woke up to the screaming of my mum at my dad. She was screaming so loudly it was unbearable. I've never heard or seen her so angry before. they were fighting over things that were accumulated over years. the summary was that she's gonna buy a new macbook just to spite my dad off.

after the fight i had my dental appointment where we met up with gee ee and lisa. then we went to eastin for lunch where my mum ranted all ther anger out to gee ee and at one point she snapped at me and I just lost it. i started crying and feeling really hurt and ended up crying in the toilet. but it was much better after that.

after lunch my mum was looking for an expensive place to have coffee and cakes to splash on my dad's money. yeah, she's weird when she's pissed. so we went to check one world hotel out. it wasnt bad although not many people were there. we went to the lounge where we had tea, biscuits, scones and there was also a chocolate fountain there!! :D

having lisa and gee ee there really lifted my mum's mood. at around 6.30 we had to leave coz mum and i had a dinner to attend and so did lisa and gee ee.

we had dinner with aunty maggie and her family to celebrated aunty maggie's niece's birthday who's 1 years old. hahaha she probably wont remember it when she grow up. lol. after dinner aunty maggie and her family came over to the house and that's it for today.

i finally got the internet working on my desktop and happily using it now :D the screen's so big that i swear my eyes are gonna pop out anytime soon. haha. oh and i FINALLY got a pen drive of my own. i better not lose this one. hahahha.

aight, i'm gonna ciao coz i've got tuition tomorrow morning :)

so tired. coming back to school after what feels like 3 months is so tiring! I mean I had to finish off my sejarah notes last night which by the way I haven't fully finished yet. Still have one more chapter to do and then not to mention presentation. Then I've got eng essay to complete which I have no idea how to do. then I feel so crappy now which isn't really helping either.

sean's birthday is coming up on the 21st of September but I somehow have a feeling that my mum won't let me go coz I've been going out a lot, yadda yadda.. but then again, I could just be paranoid. I'll just wait for her to be in a better mood then try my luck in asking her la. most probably this weekend or something.

quang and I are good, going strong :) it's been a month now and I think we'll be able to last for at least a year. but two? hmmm, that I'm not sure coz we'll be off to college and uni and overseas and stuff. but hey, we're still young :p

last but not least, I've seriously got to buck up in my studies to prove a point to mum and also dad. pressure pressure pressure. first thing to do is to finish off ALL my homework then to read the bm novels and then to fully study sejarah. sounds little and easy but it ain't easy, trust me.

so i'll be posting random pictures of plat as I go along coz I get it like little by little. ciao :)

pic 1: all the girls at plat :)

pic 2: apple advertisement by milia, lynn and I :p

pic 3: models on the beach, dani's lucky. Haha


pic 4: wheeeeeeeeee!!! :D langkawi baby!!


pic 5: our hard work which we had to sleep in later on ;)

It's been a long time and a long holiday but it was an awesome holiday! :D

Platinum was great, challenging, but great. Totally worth the money and everything else. The tasks and activities we had to complete were mentally and emotionally challenging but at the end of the day, it help each and everyone of us overcome our fears. For fear factor I had to eat 5 RAW sea cucumbers which is the size of my hand. It may not sound that disgusting but trust me, it was. It tasted SUPER, SUPER salty and smelt like a fish market which was so disgusting. I won't go into any detail bout the trip or this post will be extremely long.

So, in conclusion, the trip was good, I especially loved amazing race and I learnt a lot of things from this trip :) Quang and I got to spend lots of time together as well which did us a lot of good relationship wise coz now we're comfortable with each other. I never did any of these things with nic so I guess that's why things never really worked with us and also why we always fought.

When I got back, I woke up at like 5 in the evening and at 3 in the evening the next day. However, I woke up at 10 yesterday coz I had to go for a facial. The beautician nearly fainted when she saw my face and back. My back especially coz it's superbly burnt to the max. Haha. Later on at night, I went to Marcia's birthday party at Shangri-La with katt. It was quite fun. Aemilia and I danced, dragging other people up to the dance floor as well. Then they played a slow song 'When You Say Nothing At All' by Ronan Keating, I danced with quang, aemilia danced with jun kit, niraj with katt and jj with feri. We continued dancing after that and it was nice :) my first slow dance :)

I never did any of these stuff with nic so it's hard to describe the feeling I have when I do it with quang. But I know I'm falling deeper and deeper for him :) I know he's falling more for me too :)

So it's back to school tomorrow and I don't wanna go back :( coz i'll have so much work to do. sigh. oh well, you gotta do what you gotta do right? aight, i'm gonna go rest now. feeling so tired and sleepy. ciao!